Have you ever went through this point in your life which you came from the very top and you fell?
What would you do?
Will the ones who were there for you when you were at your peak, will still be there?
Will you stand up, and then not let the sadness consume you?
Well, I don't know.
I wouldn't say this is the most difficult time in my life ((since I'm still young))
but I did ((currently still)) experience, how does it feel to be alone, lonely, no one by your side to really understand you. That's when I know I wasn't fitting in. fitting in this awkward social circle, and then let the comments of others consume me.
Well honestly, i didnt really care much, but some of the ones that are close to me do, and that... kinda affects me. A lot.
Sometimes, (( well more like most of the time )) I will always try to fit in, make them like me, leave a good impression, be better than my past self so people won't look down on me.
But, I guess I tried too hard.
Either way, I still lose the ones which I valued much.
Of course it hurts, but most of the time when people questions about it,
I prefer not to say. I'm not sure why either.. Probably when I said it, things will get even more worse and blah.
Sometimes, I would cry to sleep at night, thinking of what went wrong, and those people who left me.
I guess, people were born to be alone anyway, it's fine.
I definitely will have to do better, be positive and overcome the challenges that I am going to face in future. Looking forward to a better day.
" Life is like a bicycle. To keep your balance, you have to keep moving forward. "
Thanks for reading.
