22July.

Hey, I'm here again. I've been updating so often nowadays it's crazy. But this space is kinda like my online diary? No one ever reads here anyway LOL. How do I put this into words............... I have been craving for you so much nowadays. I mean, I did crave for you last time, but now it kinda increased? The feelings grew deeper and deeper. Sometimes I'm not even so sure myself whether liking you so much it's a good or bad thing. Well, on the brighter side, at least you're here to keep me from falling apart. 可是你就像星星一样，很多人喜欢，可是太遥远，我怕。。。我不够好。 ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Moving on, I have loads of assignments and projects piling up this term. I need my holidays back again ( ▼-▼ ) just let me sleep and wake me up when this sem is over......................... Oh lord please give me the strength to carry on. Till next time. :)

一个很美很美的梦.

跟你在一起很像在做梦一样， 可是这个梦让我很开心很开心， 我不想醒来。 I think I'm feeling the symptoms of first love again. The last time I felt it was..... 3 years ago? first love.... Now I'm having the goosebumps on my heart all over again. Is it bad if I like you that much? Because... I have never felt so attached to anyone before. Other than my used to be best friend ( I shall not name her), but this is the first time I felt so attached to someone besides her. The first time I ever took the initiative to hold someone's hand. The first time I ever got so close to someone I like. I felt so happy with you that I don't want it to go, I want to keep it in my heart.....

sometimes.

Hey ~ I know I usually don't update here often but here I am again! HAHA. 有人曾经跟我说过，做人要尽心尽力，要一直力求完美。 To put it simply, one always have to strive harder, aiming for perfection. (pardon my lousy english) Thanks to the previous presentation, the thought of having to present again, almost killed me..........

I had a new presentation this time round, and I really didn't want to screw it AGAIN. like the previous time. This time, we had to present about any idea, or controversial topic to educate the audience. I wasn't as nervous the night before, and I only had about less than a week to prepare the slides and the script. I started research about on tuesday, and then on wednesday and thursday, chiong-ing the slides. I did kinda rushed it out bc I wanna go out to play on friday and the weekends HAHAHHA. (If you didn't know, I don't like to stay at home LOLS) I guess being confident really helped a lot. I even went to buy chocolates because my friend said chocolates can help to reduce stress. I called two of my close friends right before the presentation. I'm really glad I did because my mood brightened up a whole lot after that. I just really like how they took out some of their precious time just to speak to me and calm me down. This is probably my one sided view, but I felt like what we said through the phone call made me much less nervous.

I'm really satisfied that everything went smoothly this time round. I didn't stutter, and I maintained eye contact ( I TRIED OKAY). The slides helped too as I picked some interesting pictures. I hope I did better this time round as my teacher said I improved. For that, I'm thankful that my efforts paid off. :)

10-11th of July.

Reached home around 1250-1am? Can't really remember. Another taxi ride home this week. Didnt have enough money, but I saw the meter flying up like hell, so I asked the taxi uncle to drop me off at the busstop which is like freaking 2stops away from my house ..... PITY MY LEGS PLS.

grabbed a few sushi from the fridge once I reached home because I was hungry LOL. About 3h phone call with da idiot. The best part is, we phone called at around 140am. So I slept around 5am. I guess midnight conversations are the best. Not sure why, I like it when I'm on phone calls with someone, even if we can talk about nothing, It just kinda feels nice hearing their voice, it seems really comforting to me. That's all I have for today. Thanks for reading.